Instability

Honestly

I do and I don't want your honesty

Maybe I'm not what I want to be

Are they on to me

Do I already know and it's haunting me

Afraid I can't see what I ought to see

Why in the world aren't they stopping me

Are they mocking me

Am I in to deep

Is anyone really that into me

Is all their support out of sympathy

Or sort of a responsibility

If that's true

Can I handle humility

Will it destroy what is left of my faith in me

Or break my false sense of ability

The one true force that's instilled in me

That life isn't filled with futility

Sustained by my own culpability

For disdain against vain possibility

Mouthful of trust

Gut stuffed with gullibility

Insatiable appetite of a gluttonous

Lust for irritability

I hear this is killing me

You and Earth are just the facility

Offering everything but sterility

While poorly promoting civility

With a desperate vote for senility

And the elusive hope

To discover tranquility

Hidden amid this

Persistent instability